Just Being Me, DS

Sayang, Will You Stay ?

There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away


Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am


Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?


Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
It can become
A few give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am

Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?


Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay


Will you love me? ohh
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Syukur ~

Hoh! Guess what???
I'm an official full-time fitness trainer dekat salah satu gym area JB....
Syukur...Aminnnn~~
From freelance trainer convert into part time & now an officially full time trainer....
plus di invite juga untuk menjadi 'spoke lady' untuk beberapa health & fitness seminar..
(thank you Dato' Zaki Khan)

Itu semua yang i impikan...
Yup, starting from scratch....
Maksud i, I kelulusan BSc. in Architecture & already working in Archy line for 3 years...
I have nothing in fitness scope... I'm starting from zero & totally out of shape....
tapi i betol2 tekad yang one day i akan buktikan kat diri i, i akan cuba berusaha dapatkan salah satu karier impian i yang i rase mustahil tuk i kecap....

ye lah seperti mane yang i pernah crita kat u all before lah...sepanjang life i, i asyek kne gelak jew if i cakap one day i boleyh lose weight & being fit.... yup, dengan ketawa & perlekeh dari orang sekeliling, betol2 banyak kali patahkan semangat i... even i pon xyakin i boleyh lose weight one day....
Tapi, bagi sape2 yang kenal dri i secara personally, they know who i am inside there....

for being honest, sepanjang setahun lebih journey i untuk kejar impian fitness i, totally banyak sangat dugaan yang i terpakse lalui sampaikan beberapa kali i nak stop in fitness.... i xdapat support from my loved ones....
my parent xberapa setuju tuk i berdiri dalam fitness coz they want me to be an architect (i'm still being a freelance designer right now, whaatttt~~), my siblings pon xsupport coz dorang memang xyakin i boleyh sampai jauh.... my boyfriend?? errrrr??? he left me coz  i am tooooo  FREAK in fitness thingy2 ni.... some of my friends pon condemn baekk punye kat i....
just imagine, sape lagi yang nak support i tuk berjuang sesorang tuk i kejar impian i??

YES! some of my closefriends, bff, sifus, mentors, fans & followers lah yang ari2 brainwashed otak i tuk i STAND STILL & bangun tegak setiap kali i jatuh menanges....
sebab tu i rasa bersyukur sekarang.... dengan segala dugaan hebat yang i lalui sebelum ni tuk capai impian i, alhamdullillah, Allah dah berikan jalan & bukakkan sedikit pintu rezeki i dalam fitness line....maybe i belom gah & nama i pon belom dikenali ramai sebab pada i banyak lagi usaha i kne lakukan tuk kejar sesuatu yang kita betol2 nak, kena pulak start dari zero....sekali lagi & banyak2 kali i rase bersyukur kat tuhan telah memberi i peluang tuk merasa apa impian mustahil yang i dapat sekarang.....alhamdullillah...
masih banyak lagi i perlu belajar & usaha untuk menjadi 'seseorang' dalam dunia fitness ni....i masih level baby lagi... i yakin ramai lagi kat luar sane lagi berganda2 hebat dari i ni....but, i will promise to myself & to u all too yang i akan cuba THE BEST to be 'somebody' in malaysian fitness...

thank u for all u guys punyer supports & thank u jugak kat semua sifu2 & otai2 yang sudi mendidik i sampai jadi TOUGH  macam dorang jugak! huhuhu....
Love u all.... 

xoxo

DIANE SERA  

on behalf of my tiny voice inside there...

Katy Perry - Wide Awake


I'm wide awake

Yeah, I was in the dark
I was falling hard
With an open heart
I'm wide awake
How did I read the stars so wrong?
I'm wide awake
And now it's clear to me
That everything you see
Ain't always what it seems
I'm wide awake
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long

[Pre-Chorus]
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
'Til I woke up on
On the concrete

[Chorus]
Falling from cloud 9
Crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight
Yeah, I'm falling from cloud 9

I'm wide awake
Not losing any sleep
I picked up every piece
And landed on my feet
I'm wide awake
Need nothing to complete myself, no

I'm wide awake
Yeah, I am born again
Outta the lion's den
I don't have to pretend
And it's too late
The story's over now, the end

[Pre-Chorus]
I wish I knew then
What I know now
Wouldn't dive in
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts
You made it so sweet
'Til I woke up on
On the concrete

[Chorus]
Falling from cloud 9 (it was out of the blue)
I'm crashing from the high
I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting you go)
I'm falling from cloud 9

I'm wide awake
Thunder rumbling
Castles crumbling
I'm wide awake
I am trying to hold on
I'm wide awake
God knows that I tried
Seeing the bright side
I'm wide awake
But I'm not blind anymore...

I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake

[Chorus]
Yeah, I'm falling from cloud 9 (it was out of the blue)
I'm crashing from the high
You know I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting you go)
I'm falling from cloud 9

A sweet advice from a brother...

Diane Sera don't cry
Love is hurt to make you stronger
But I'll keep you strong after you fall
Love is nothing but the feeling you'll forget


Diane Sera don't cry
Life is hard to make you understand
But I'll be watching you as you grow


Life is nothing but the dream we're living
Year will goes after it comes
Sun will sets after it rises

We won't stay here forever
But keep my promise my sister
No matter where you are
No matter how old we would be
I will protect you, to the utmost
I'll be watching you, near or far

I wrote this poem few years ago, for the sister I never had.. or so I thought. Now I already have a little sister
 [ and her name is Diane Sera :-) ]

p/s: a sweet poem dedicated from MUHAMMAD HABIBURAHMAN... thanx bib for making me from stop crying!! =D i'm happy now, dont worry about me...

Tears Of Life…

Tears Of Life…


Some tears just showing below my eye…
Don’t know either happy or sorrows…
I didn’t mean to hurt you or make you cry…
Do forgive me if said something so dire…


Just want make you happy, no matter what…
Coz you are making me feel so alive…
Just wish someday we will be close forever…
To see you eyes, hug you, be always by side…


Maybe if god wills we may not…
I’ll from a far pray for your happiness…
I’ll cherish every memory of you…
I’ll remember always memoir of you …


Thanks For everything... Hoping you will happy with ur new life...

p/s: A poem created by my buddy: Abg Mohd Ridzuan Abidin...
Tq Abg Ridz for this lovely poem...

GET IT???

Dari dulu sampai sekarang, ape aje i buat, i will force myself to do this!

!

I'm settling everything down...

Kimbra - "Settle Down"

Rebound ?? Karma ??

I'M SINGLE AND NOT LOOKING FOR A REBOUND RELATIONSHIP...

Look GENTLEMENS OUT THERE, dont see me as a DESPERATE GIRL WHO REALLY2 NEEDS A GUY TO ACCOMPANY MY LIFE!! GET IT?? dont force me to be rude... please dont asked that "are u single & available, girl??" stupid question anymore....if u want to be my friends, i'll treat u like my friends...but if u want to be my man, just forget about it! i'm not in the effort of  looking a replacement for now, not because i'm stupid or couldn't move on but because I'M BEING AWARE!!!! I'M TIRED TO LOVE OR TO BE LOVE RIGHT NOW!!! I'M NOT DESPERATE OR NEEDY EITHER.. i'm not picking up guys randomly (main tangkap muat asalkan ade boyfriend)  to replace the void & emptiness in my heart coz i dont want him to be my REBOUND PARTNER~~
Yes, yet i do believe in rebound relationship WILL NEVER WORK!!...it wouldn't long lasting...why??? because KARMA WILL HIT U AFTER YOU DUMPED SOMEONES THAT U LOVE BEFORE THIS!! I dah terkena and i jalani dengan redha... i admit i was wrong in my past relationship..but now i'm happy coz one day this karma will jump on to the person that makes a woman suffer & cry EVERYDAY, MONTH BY MONTH until her tears dries out... Hey, i'm not using a new guy just to force my heart to heal up & try to love him...NO, thats ridiculous!! heart will never heal if u cari boyfriend/girlfriend tangkap muat.... 


"Flirt and date, but don't rebound. What's the difference, you ask? When you flirt and date, you open yourself up to new people and to the possibility of love. When you rebound, you immerse yourself immediately into a new relationship that isn't exactly right in an attempt (sometimes consciously, sometimes unconsciously) to distract yourself from your pain and in the same time forcing yourself to accept your partner eventhough she/he couldn't brighten up your life...You can't lie or force your heart to accept rebound partner when you dont even barely know your feeling either fake or true loving her/him...It's all about where is your heart right now, not your brain that controls your heart...Maybe you can dumped your previous partner & find a replacement in the blink of your eyes, but remember one thing....that the one you dumped & if she/he still loved you, your heart is still in her/his hands... No matter how hard you try to force yourself to accept your new partner, one day you will realize it's all just a big juicy mistake that you barely regret in your life..Than karma will hit your life... "
Professor X
Love Psychologist, University Of XXX..

I'm letting my heart HEALS FIRST & try not to commit in any of relationship temporary... I lalui jugak karma i ni dengan tabah & regret dengan ape i pernah buat kat orang tu dlu...now his happy with his lovely wife and i'm happy to see his happiness...hope one day this karma yang i lalui, expired & cepat2lah transfer kat orang yang berkenaan...I do believe, one day God will send me a guy who love me good or bad i am....Nobody's perfect & no one have the power to punish those yang pernah buat mistakes....

Huhuhuhu... cara crite macam sedih jeww... no lah... i'd already adapt with this feelings beberapa bulan ni...dah xde ape dah yang perlu i sedih or nanges....nanges??? nk nanges ape lagi kalo air mate dah kering kontang 7 keturunan mahsuri??? wasted lah nanges tuk bende2 ni...better nanges time berdoa & mintak ampun kat tuhan...hummm, i'm not saying i ni bagus sangat or baik sangat, just feel more better & stronger than before tuk ngadap bende2 ni semua...I'm starting a new better life after this...Pray for my happiness, friends...

Syukur Alhamdullillah to Allah for changing me into a nice young lady back again... I promise You I will never be notty or being proud of what i have now & in the future... Tq for bringing me back my smile after plenty of tears i've wasted before... Amin...~~ =)

Friends Forever !!!

Rihanna Feat Chris Brown - Umbrella / Cinderella ( Official Video )

p/s: Dedicating this song for appreciating Mr H, Mr F, Mr I, Mr B, Mr R, Mr. A & Mr. S for being my close friends during sadness & happiness!!
sayang u boys!!! thank youuu ~~ i'm happy with u boys!!

TQ 4 BRIGHTEN UP MY DAY !!

"Hey Mr. Funkyboy, I am too excited for this weekend. Last weekend was just so crazy I have been thinking about it all week, and can't wait to have fun again with you this weekend. Call me back and let me know where we are going this time"

I'm Sorry, I'm Lost, My Blog Getting Gloomy..

My blog is my diary, IT'S ALL ABOUT MY LIFE!!.. and this is not 100% fitness blog..Im not creating this blog only to SHOW OFF HOW FIT I AM COZ IM NOT THAT KIND OF PERSON!! I'M JUST SHARING MY EXPERIENCES & KNOWLEDGES... So, if some of  u out there trying to give some 'SHITTY' comments bout my blog, I do suggest better stay out... jangan baca blog ni kalo xsuke... this blog is about 'WORLD OF DIANE' , it's my life concept.. not only about fitness 100% from A-Z... tajuk blog ni xde pon tulis pasal fitness blog...if rase nak support me, just continue to support me with kritik2 yg MEMBINA sikit time i tengah lost mcm ni.. klo takat nak saketkan ati i, better GET LOST! 

SAKET OTAK SAYE !!

Awak... saye dah cakap kt awak elok2 & sopan2... Saye xmo.... Ati saye still belom nak commit pape relationship lagi.... awak jangan desak2 saye boleyh x???  xyahlah nak desak2 saye tuk trima awak...xperlu jugaklah tuk jadi scandal2 rapat dengan saye.... otak saye saket ar pikir desakkan awak ni... cinta saye bukan murah2 tuk main tangkap muat jew ade boyfren... saye xkisah jadi single solo skg sebab saya happy dengan femly & friends saye....

tolong pham ea wakk~~~
klo awak xpham, biar saye bertegas sikit kt awak:

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Paula DeAnda ft the dey - Walk Away (Remember Me)

I'm gonna remember you

You're gonna remember me
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me

You gonna remember me boo
I'm gonna remember you too
I can't forget all the crazy shhh.. we used to do
You was doing too much
I wasn't doing enough
That's what your friends are saying
You got a man anyway
I can't explain it neither
I ain't never wanna leave ya
Hell ya its hard to walk away when I see ya
When I see ya I remember the day
You put your shoes on and moved on
Before I could say

I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
Does she rub your feet
When you've had a long day
Scratch your scalp
When you take out your braids
Does she know that you like too
Play PS2 till 6 in the morning
Like I do

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)
Walk Away, Walk Away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

I can't forget how we used to be
Our life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't
Though a new man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
Does he kiss me on the forehead
Before we play
Show up on my doorstep
(with a bouquet)
Does he call me in the middle of the day
Just to say hey baby I love you
Like you used to

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)
Walk Away, Walk Away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

I'm Gonna Remember You
Your Gonna Remember Me
The things we did
The way we shared our fantasies
Just you and me
My friend, my love, my family
How did we loose a love that seemed meant to be
Sometimes I kiss her and wish that it was you I'm kissing
Sometimes I miss him and wish that it was you I'm missing
Sometimes I hug her and wish that it was you I was hugging
And I realize how much I'm bugging
I miss you

Walk Away, Walk Away

(I'm Gonna Remember You
Your Gonna Remember Me)

So hard to express this feeling
Cause nobody compares to you
And you know she'll never love you like I do

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away

(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

Walk Away, Walk Away

Remember You

(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

NANGES LAGIII~~

 Arini kene workout lowerbody lagi~~
WAAAAAA!!!!

Sometimes~

THE TRUTH ABOUT GIRLS??

Attension to BOYS & GUYS out there...
This is the truth about being
GIRLS & LADIES....
U should get deal with it, yeah~

WHAT DIANE'S TRY TO ACHIEVE ???

U TWO LADIES ARE SOOOOO FINNNEEEE~~~
ADORE U !!!!

nak gak jadi fitness model macam niiii~~
*hampa kalo xleyh nk dapat*

CHALLENGE MYSELF!!!
GOTTA BEAT MY LOW SELF-ESTEEM..

Bersyukur...

Pagi ni i dapat satu great news from my followers..Pagi2 i dah tersenyum lega biler baca message dari one of my followers ni....

From Nurul Atikah

• hi diane..
  just nk share story dgn u skit...
  today, i bru jew start my routine kt gym
  bru nk knal2 alat kt gym sume.. 
  seriously, i mmg xnyesal lgsg sign up at gym(apart from fees yg mahalt)..
  then, after i dh finish my workout kt gym, i ada jumpa one girl ni kt locker room.. we exchanged story ckit2 la pasal healthy lifestyle ni..
  u know what? when i mentioned yg i ada follow satu blog psal fitness ni, dye pn tanya la i blog apa i follow..
  then i mentioned la ur blog, it happens that dye pn baca blog yg sama!!!!
  sgt2 terkjut, as one thing that we both shared are related to your blog and now i can say u mmg famous all over malaysia la diane!! hihi..
  i just nk wish congrats on ur hardwork, sampai org boleh recognize u di seluruh malaysia...
  keep up the good work, darl!
  
  
  
  
  
  

  
  

  Thank u soooo much Atikah for sharing this great news....I akan cube sebaik yang mungkin untuk menyediakan info2 fitness terutama untuk kaum2 wanita diluar sana.... I pon still learning, so forgive me if blog ni kekurangan info2 yang u all sume perlukan...Just wish me the best of luck to get a 'small' fitness platform dalam Malaysia ni...Xperlu besar2 pon xpe, janji ade tapak dalam fitness world ni...

  
  

  Keep on supporting DIANE SERA!!!

  LUV U ALL~~